The Beloved holds my heart as a pen
“Rumi’s Little Book of Life”, transl. M. Mafi, A.M. Kolin, Hampton Roads: Charlottesville, VA 2012, p. 95.
writing whatever He fancies.
He trims the pen each day for a task
sometimes He smothers it in ink
sometimes He flips it upside down
sometimes He splits the tip for his purpose.
Like a doctor, He knows what is best for the patient.
With one line He wipes clean the entire world
with another He protects it from disaster.
The heart is both aware and unconscious
it has no judgement so it surrenders
to the Beloved’s hand that holds it.
Praise the heart that has become aware!
I may call my heart a pen but nothing can explain
this form without form, restrained
yet with free will, a union of paradox.
Life is a Mystery, one that we cannot fully perceive or understand with our Minds.
The Mind is here to see, collect data, analyse, calculate, and provide probable future outcomes or interpretations of the past from these calculations. The problem with a calculation is, that it can be based solely on the input the Mind is given: our past experiences and information gathered from all that is surrounding us: experiences of our friends and family, tv shows, books, conversations, etc. The Mind lives in the past, and in the future. It has no idea about the Now. And so, it has no idea about the Life.
The main premise of the Human Design system is that as humans, we are equipped with a decision making mechanism, that enables us to give up our Mind as a decision maker. The Mind is being seen as a source of most of our “problems”, while our Body is the one, that can actually know where we are supposed to be in this life and guide us there. This is where your “Strategy and Authority” comes in.
Before I’ve met HD, whenever I had no idea what was going on in my life, I felt lost and anxious, I would say (or write) to myself “I trust my Inner Wisdom”, “I trust my Life”. Now I call the “Inner Wisdom” my “Inner Authority”, but the rest stays the same.
It is very easy to “trust life” when life goes as we “want it” to go. As we, with our Minds, expect it to unfold (sometimes even without knowing that we do expect something…). But when something goes „wrong”, that is, not as we had wished it to be, ha! That’s a completely different story!
I love my Mind, because it earns my money (!). I am past the stage of “my Human Design experiment” when I thought my Mind is my biggest enemy, standing in the way to a better life. But only now, after more than 3 years of experimenting, I am starting to see clearly, that my Mind really has absolutely NO IDEA of what is happening in my life. All the „enlightened” input it provides about it is a constant, 24/7, stream of ever-changing interpretations. This happened (or not), so that means (or not), that X or Y is (or not). Oh, my sweet Mind, you have no idea! Making everything up all the time! And for years I believed in all these interpretations! And acted upon them! Ridiculous.
It is a lonely and a bit scary place to trust life completely. Seeing that the thing I’ve been trained to trust, my own rational, very intellectual mind; my rational, well-thought-out decisions have nothing to do with my own life. The Mind has no idea of what is going on. It can only watch, gather data and calculate.
What if the Life really knows better? Rumi says that “the Beloved” (that is “the Life” for me) is like a doctor who knows what is best for the patient.
Luckily for us, it seems that the Life has the ability to go on, led by its own mystery, despite any of our [our Minds’] delusions, plans and wishes. If we’re lucky enough to be able to let it all go, watching what unfolds starts to get quite interesting! A union of paradox.
But being a 6/2 is not an easy task. I will go into some details of that, and share the story, or “the origin” of this new reflection, as it was not a stroll that got me to the place I am now.
